emotional

period came this morning, while i was on the bed lazying around after awake and felt something weird. gosh, it came.

faster grab towel, cloths, pad and off to toilet. met Teing on the way. HaHa. so early wake up wan? actually, the toilet is not very far away. just that, it's not the one that connected to my room anymore. :(

first few hours, i was fine. then, it started to get pains and felt uncomfortable. especially, the room is so heat up. i started to cry. think of my maids and him. thought twins went out to somewhere, so i called him up. turned out, they were actually in their rooms. ate the medicine that Teing gave, felt a lot better with the hot pack on my stomach.

this day is sucks. i cried a lot before actually called him up. i thought i can handle this thing well when i'm at oversea. now, i know i can't. i miss home.

had biscuits and half tom yam mee for lunch. so spicy and Teing had to finish mine.
i'm so grateful that Twins are here with me. i don't know i'll cry until when if they were not here to check me up. conclusion is, i am so sucky. so weak.

when i was crying on the phone to tell him how pain it is, i told him i wanna go home. it's like, i can drive and reach home anytime. i used to do it when i was in M'sia. miss him so much.