me, being feeble.

for not crying for 3 weeks, i thought i'm strong enough to handle all the stress and loneliness here all by myself. turned out, i am NOT.

2 tests on the same day, which fall on 30th of March. i been studying hard for weeks, slept at 3 or 4a.m. just to type notes. only for one particular subject, because it's all theories and words.

for finance, i am in knowing-nothing-about-it situation. and now, i'm trying hard to understand all the formulaes given.

then, i cried. i'm scared i couldn't understand all in time, and sit for the test. i will screw the test. very badly. basically, i'm just SCARED. i can't deal with stress. :'(

my darl, couldn't understand. study hard is a must, but it's just stressful. and i can't handle it by myself. i need comfort. and unfortunately, he didn't see it. probably face-to-face is much easier for him to get the point.

i envy the couples around the Uni. hold hands, joke around, laugh together.
this is so not good to me now. :(

back to study. *think think think*