i wonder did he feel excited for seeing me after without my existence around him for 4 days. i really wondered.
honestly, i was thrilled. i began to miss him on the 2nd day and tried to held myself not to disturb him to study for his final. but i stood at my position until the 5th day,and finally i moved. =)
i sms-ed him to see if he has the time to have lunch with me. and he had the time. =D
well, we met at the Face - to - Face, because it's quite near to our college. he only watched me eat because he ate already.
however, our conversations still never leave car topics. he talked about his car lights, petrol host, vacuum host, long shaft, absorbers. honestly, i preferred him to tell me that he missed me, ask me what i did this few days. or give me a kiss initially. he didn't.
i know him very well. he doesn't show his feelings or tells how much he loves me. unless i ask.
i wanted to hug him before i left to my car. but i didn't do so. don't know why. at that moment, i felt sad.
probably because, i didn't have enough of time with him and he didn't adore me as i thought he will.
every time i tried to get intimate with him through sms, he told me, "after exam first la. these days very busy la.". which made me feel, i'm so annoying.
just sometimes, he replied me, "i got miss you ar". after i asked him, "do you miss me today?".
ya la. i feel having a long term relationship will really makes everything not so bother by the guy. because, he thinks the girl will definitely understand his situation or some shit. and can make it back to her after things happen. i just can't take the facts, sometimes.
The day you left us...
2 years ago